Right. So I dropped off the face of the earth for awhile. After the Shakedown, I went into a serious slump. I don't know why. I stopped training with Will for no other reason than I was lazy. I was working out maybe twice a week. My diet reverted mostly back to its old ways. And I started to feel as though it was too much trouble to be a better person.
The thing is, I'd been making progress. That's what was so weird. The energy system development (sprints on my lunch break) were helping my conditioning workouts. I was inching up in weight on my deadlifts and squats. The diet was hard. Really hard. And when I checked out of the diet, I felt like a failure, so I started slacking on the workouts, too.
But in the last week, I've made peace with the diet. I know strict paleo isn't right for me. And I'm setting myself up for failure if I get too stringent. So I'm trying to find a balance now - no more mid-afternoon jelly beans, but maybe a hamburger now and then WITH A BUN. More than anything, I'm trying not to dwell on failure but rather the incremental, positive changes that will propel me forward.
I'm gearing up for our next CrossFit competition, which is giving me motivation to stay focused. And I'm tapping into some of my CrossFit buddies who are equally struggling to see what we can do to stay on track. We're going to start developing weekly meal plans and shopping lists, exchanging them at the start of the week, so only one of us has to do the thinking, which is the toughest part. I can just turn my brain off, go to the grocery store, and pile stuff in the cart.
So let's hope I can stick with the new plan. I really do want to be a healthier person, even though I say I don't. And I continue to be inspired by the ladies in the gym making great progress, who push me to get better, too.
